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My 2024 Wrapped

 

I have contemplated writing this post, wondering if I am really in a mood to travel back down the memory lane and explore the year I had. But here I am, reflecting on what all went down in the last year, just as a way for myself to document my journey through the chaos.

I started 2024 in a not so good mood, with dealing  emotions that were just too heavy to be explained in words or even understood, from feeling lost and alone to at the same time feeling guilty about letting down the people who cared for me, it was a complicated beginning. Then came a happy moment when I attended my first ever concert, something I desperately wanted to do.

On the work front, I continued my MPhil journey, learning things I assumed I wouldn’t be able to do and finding ways to accomplish my goals in ways that were interesting to say the least. Feelings of being overwhelmed and not doing enough for my goals were a near constant, often to the point of being counterproductive. I learned about things that continue to amaze me and make me fall in love with my job more than ever. The fact that everyone has a story to share and I can be there to listen to even a fraction of them has been a highlight.

I got the opportunity to present my first seminar, which is close to my heart, at a conference and speak about the mental health challenges faced by persons with visual impairments through the course of their lives. I participated in a podcast, spreading awareness about the unique lived experiences of women with visual impairments and how the society views them while trying to bust some myths.

On a personal level, this was an interesting year, I gave myself space to heal from emotions that had been lingering around for a long time and make room for new possibilities and at the same time, allowed myself to accept that it is okay to not rush the process and take my time. I communicated my needs better and was grateful to be understood and accommodated by the ones I love. I lost a loved one, someone who was one of my biggest cheerleaders growing up and I know her love will always be with me.

After a long time, I experienced distance and disconnection from friends that I hoped would stay forever and that’s life. I pushed myself to still be vulnerable and found connections with some amazing friends, even though the sceptic in me is reluctant.  I learned, yet again, that letting go and moving forward are the best gifts anyone can give to themselves, even when it hurts. I tried my best to be there for my friends and do things that gave me happiness.

All in all, this was a year of growth, even though at times I felt stuck. It was a year I learned to appreciate myself more and also acknowledge the people and opportunities in my life while also realising my struggles and efforts, irrespective of whether the outcome was favourable or not. I hope 2025 is a better year but also a year I continue to work on myself and challenge myself to become the person I wish to be, in both my personal and professional life. 

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