The Bigger Picture

    I've always called life a roller coaster for some reason that I never understood. I mean, realistically, it is true; just like a roller coaster, life has its ups and downs and it goes at a speed that doesn't really seem fair, but then, it is also fun (even if it is for a select population). Once you're on it, you can't get off till the ride is complete, whether you like it or not. Isn't that how life is? You've got it and now you gotta deal with it, just as it is, whether you like it or not.

    The past couple of years have been some of the most interesting and nerve wrecking years of my life. There have been high ups and low downs, hell there have even been some diagonals from what I can see. But as I sit and reflect right now, these 2 years have been the biggest learning curve for me. From getting my first job to leaving my home to actually living a dream I didn't believe was possible, a LOT happened.

    By this point, I'm sure you're wondering why I am rambling. It's because even though a lot has happened and now I look back at it and admire the progress, I can't stop but think to myself, how did I do all this? How did I deal with the anxiety that comes with new things? How did I manage to figure out living on my own and not collapse? I have lost faith in some of the things I held closest to my heart and I am still not over it. I have questioned my judgment in almost everything I have done and continue doing and I still somehow continue to keep going. How did I go through heartbreaks and losses and still continue to not completely isolate? And you know what? I Don't know!

    What I do know is, I have gotten to know myself more in these 2 years than ever. I have recognized my strengths and I am still working on my weaknesses. I have also come to appreciate all the dreams I have and the fact that I still believe that I can fulfill them (ok, I sometimes have faith). I recognize my limitations and yet make sure to not let them become boundaries I cannot cross. And most importantly, I have recognized who matters in my life and who doesn't. And most importantly, I am trying to recognize and accept who and what really matters in the grand scheme of things and what doesn't.

    Moral of this weird post, Keep Going! Wherever you are in your life, whether good or bad, keep moving. Because if you're in a good place, you gotta get to the better one and if you're in a bad place, then there's no point in staying there. You will find bumps along the way and you will get stuck in traffic jams, but you will also get to admire the scenery and watch the pretty clouds. It all comes down to whether you choose to focus on just one aspect or look at the bigger picture.