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#Mood

In life, we go through various stages and experience a wide range of emotions. Some days, we are happy and like the people around us while on other days, the same people and the same interactions feel like mere obligations. Weird, right?

Lately, I've been going through some stuff that I'm not really able to fülly comprehend. On the one hand, I'm genuinely happy with where i am in my life and I'm enjoying the things that I'm doing. But on the other hand, there's this constant unease and emotional buildup about God knows what. I mean, I can go from cracking a joke to going all dark and mean within seconds, and at times, I don't even know why.

There are moments where I am with the people I love dearly and yet I feel it as an obligation to maintain the conversation. I feel so lost that I can't find my own self. And it's not even that i don't have anyone to talk to. The problem is I Can't. And not because I don't want to, no. It's because i just can't. 

The reason I'm putting this here is to, I don't know, try and find some introspection, or probably to let you guys know that if anyone of you is going through something similar, You're not Alone. But there is one thing I'm sure of and it is that I am gonna get through this because there's no one better equipped to figure it out than me. And so Can You. 


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