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The Missing Peace

I don't know what I'm here to say today. It's been so long since I last wrote that I'm not even sure where to start. It's been almost 2 years since my last post and over this time, there has always been that voice inside my head telling me to write, to express, to say something, but I just couldn't do it. Days became weeks and weeks became months. And all this while, I just couldn't figure out what was wrong. I was completely unable to understand why I was so lost. It's messed up, I know but it is what it is.

See, around the time I stopped writing, my life went through a major change, not something bad or something I had not experienced before but on the contrary, something that had happened to me more than a decade ago and which I had promised myself not to feel so deeply again. The only difference between what happened last time and the recent incident was ; last time I'd learned to block everyone out but this time, I closed myself in.

It is a fact that I have always been a private person and have been blamed on several occasions for not sharing but this was much different. I realised I hadn't just closed myself in from the world but somehow even from myself. In my efforts to not care and accept my feelings, I was doing a lot of damage. And it is my belief that I'd have been better off had I managed to put my emotions into words a little earlier. But they say everything has a time, and here I am.

Maybe now that I have tried to share this i will be able to make better peace with my own self and move on the road to healing. And I hope that after reading this, you too will search a way to confront your personal demons to find your missing peace again.

Aasani se girhe khulti nahi hain
Mann wo hathila hai jo phir bhi suljhaave
Raahi ka toh kaam hai, chalta hi jaave
Saaiyan ve Saaiyan ve

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  1. Perplexing Space29 March 2019 at 09:51

    Nicely written how clearly u expressed ur thoughts❤

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  2. Ramneek Sandhu29 March 2019 at 11:55

    Something I felt ,so closely *long time ago*! Well Done

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  3. Unknown29 March 2019 at 18:20

    Tamrina, you are a sweetheart..Whatever you write is so pure ❤️God bless u always..and always remember we as individuals are a complete universe on our own, never let anything lessen your shine..keep writing, keep smiling❤️

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  4. Ruhaniyat-The spritual journey30 March 2019 at 01:21

    Meditation is wat can help u open all blacks by opening up ur chakras and accepting the fact that letting go off things and peoole that nonlonger serve u any puropese is v imp. Its also helps u in expressing wat u want without caring of anyone. Bless everyone and forget every hurt. Ooen ur heart and live life a boss. God bless u with speedy healing and angels be with u owz

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  5. Sujinderpalsingh30 March 2019 at 14:44

    To find inner peace sometimes u have to lose connection with the people,places and the things that make noise in Ur Life.. willingly

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